Heat

I don't understand what it is about hot days that make me so lazy and sleepy. It seems that as the sun rises it sucks the energy right out of my body and I don't want to do anything but sit and 'veg'.
Beth and Richard are leaving soon. I don't think I have wrapped my mind around that yet. It seems somehow more permanent and wrenching than when Beth got married. Distance I think is what adds to the feeling. I find myself wondering about my various ancestors who left family and home to come to Utah so many years ago. I know many of them knew they would never see their natal family again in this life. I don't know that I could have done it.
Still feeling somewhat directionless and at lose ends. Hopefully I will be able to get out of this funk before fall. I think the trick is to just keep looking forward more than I look back. Like driving...you look back every so often, so you don't get blind-sided...but not often. Keep your focus foward and maybe a little on the sides...everything else doesn't matter anymore. Easy to say, hard to do I'm afraid.